*++//pRoBLeMs~~

2004-09-01T07:32:00.000+08:00

2004-08-20T16:43:00.000+08:00

--sick--

2004-08-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

*smiLes*
.m i bored or wad?
.yes i m
.hahas
.continue reading..
...
.name.: joAnna
.nick.: mojo
.bdae.: 20 april
.school.: st nicholas
.class.: 2 grace
.horoscope.: aries
.zodiac.: horse
.starry** friends.:
renette*yanling*shermaine
huwen*nat*joan*
jacinta*shaozhe*cheryl
geraldine*yuhui*peiqi
.star* friends.:
yeewen_lumjie_huichi_linfeng
jingliang_xinying_eliza_*huiying*
*yuhan*_cheryl.s_yingjie_huiwen
chuyan_aiming_suwi_boonmeng
vivian_jiehui_duqian_sabrina

-end of report-
.hahas..
.lame-

2004-08-14T15:09:00.000+08:00

*smiLes*
.had np yesterdae
.it totally rawks
.natalie dint come
.her excuse was that she had chess training
.i tink its kinda lame lar
.nvm
.aniwae
.yesterdae was totally not a flop
.it was great
.dunno
.juz lyk yesterdae
*smiLes*

2004-08-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

*smiLes*
.had np yesterdae
.it totally rawkx
.i dunno
.juz that it went smoothly yesterdae
.learnt a new drill
.baton drill
.its quite cool
.and cute
.hahas
.dunno wad to say le
.noted till here

2004-08-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

.having npcc tomolo
.first time
.first time without the sec fours
.feel so weird
.they've left
.to prepare fer their o'levels
.*aLL tHe bEst!!
.really miss them lots
.their laughter
.their smiles
.their everything
.cried on sec four farewell
.whole squad only me and sylvia cry
.its so weird
.dunno why
.i feel closer to the sec fours this year
.perhaps they are much more
.much more easier to mix with
.haven polish my boots yet
.haven iron my skirt
.haven polish my belt and crest yet
.haven
.everything oso haven
.arrgh!
.got flag raising tomolo
.hav to go down this whole week
.at seven
.its so fun
.but tinghui there alwaes very loose
.think she got no strength
.mux jia you more!!
.too bad i cant change with her
.i mean position
.i got injury with my left hand
.cannot use too mush force
.hahas
.im so bad
*****
.wad would you do if your friend betrays you
.wad if that friend was your best one
.or wad if you take her as your best friend
.and she doesn't
.and she betray you
.would you be sad
.yes you would
.would you be disappointed with her
.yes you would
.if you're lucky
.maybe you dint meet any
.any of these friends
.but wad if there is one
.juz right beside you
.-_-
*crieS*

Friends
A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.
*smiLes*

2004-08-09T09:39:00.000+08:00

.-_-.
.awWW
.manNs
.im feeling so vexed now
.i wanna frustrate it!!!
.i wun write out e names
.but i hope if tt person
.noes who im talking about
.hope u not angry kaes??
.its for three person
.firstly A
.A is kinda pissed with B
.B is oso a bit pissed lol
.and poor C knew a bit lol
.but C is neutral
.like me
.should i tell C everything
.i think she has the right to know
.but im afraid
.A and B would be pissed with me
.im afraid now
.ONE of them is pissed
.with ME!!
.im seriously neutral
.i kept everything to myself
.i dint tell A wad B said
.i oso dint tell B wad A said
.aRRgH
.am i handling this wrongly
.i've tried my best
.but
.it turn out the wrong way
.i hope they will patch up
.i tink they would
.but by that time
.the one out
.would be ME!!
.maybe im too suspicious
.but i sometimes is too sensitive too
.when someone around me keeps mum
.i would tink she's pissed
.when sometimes someone pulls another away
.i would tink that they were talking about me
.is this bad
.i mean am i seriously TOO sensitive?
.i dunno
.i only noe
.i hope someone
.can light up my path
.my future
.and tell me wad i can do
.wad i should do
.wad i will do
.but
.whose that persom
.to A and B
.i dunno if u'll be angry
.but i hope u'll not
.cause
.i dunno wad else i can do
.other than writing here
.and venting everything here
.dun worry
.i dint say anything
.i've kept mum
.and im not going to write here too
.believe me
.no one knows
.and to C
.i've decided to tell u
.okayy
.thats all
.i think i should go relax a bit
.yepp
.byee
.-_-.

2004-08-08T11:52:00.000+08:00

-cries-
.im sad
.very sad
.not becos of malay culture
.not becos of school
.juz sad
.-_-.
.i feel lyk crying
.sad
.listening to hou lai
.by rene lai
.-_-.
.friendship
.izzit important
.but is there really true friendship
.i dunno
.i hope there is
.friends are forever
.friends accompany you throughout
.share weal and woe
.friends laughed with you
.friends cry with you
.friends share your burden
.friends are for you to turn to
.friends are your rays
.you are the sun
.friends stand by you
.all the way
.friends hold you up
.when you're down
.friends catch your tears
.when you cry
.friends share your secrets
.friends are sent by god
.they doubles our joy
.they divides our sorrow
.that is what
.a true friend is
.-_-.
.then wad is love
.izzit juz further friendship
.but if it is so
.why are there breakups
.WHY
.people say
.love is friendship set on fire
.love is a never ending feeling
.love is full of sacrifices
.love is the start of a new life
.love is a game
.love toys with feelings
.izzit true
.wad is love
.-_-.
.fate
.everything depends on fate
.every choice you made are long decided
.the minute you were born
.fate were set
.fate were made
.fate were decided in heaven
.procedures were carried out here
.everything is predestined
.so am i
.so are you
.the minute you and me were born
.we were destined
.we were fated
.to meet in this life
.in this big big world
.we met
.in singapore
.we were juz fated to become friends
.or were we not
.will we continue
.or will we not
.i wonder
.i pinned my hopes
.on heaven
.life is full of ups and downs
.my ups have gone
.my downs are here
.im feeling down
.i cant do anything
.i need someone
.someone who places trust in me
.someone who allows me to share
.my burden
.my sorrows
.i need to bury them
.i once read
.you can only live once in this life
.so make sure that i live to the fullest
.of everyday
.im selfish
.perhaps i should juz keep it
.keep everything to myself
.this way
.no one would have to carry my burden for me
.but can i
.i dunno
.i juz wanna express
.all my mixed feelings now
.im all mixed up
.wad am i thining of
.i dunno
.my mind is in a whirl
.oops
.this is a place for me
.a place for me to cough out
.everything
.all my troubles
.-_-.
.to anyone reading this
.im okay
.you may think that im mad
.but im not
.im juz emotional
.im not talking crap
.i mean wad i say
.wad i need is juz a tinge of care
.im feeling helpless
.suicide
.its lame
.but perhaps it really helps
.to clear all my troubles
.the nether world is the only place
.where i can relax
.i wanna go
.but i cant let go
.im pathetic
. = ( .

2004-08-03T16:28:00.001+08:00

-nodds-
.omg
.im gng broke
.sis bdae tis thurs
.ja bdae tis fri
.omg
.tis izzen main point
.thurs
.malay culture
.dikir barat
.omg
.how
.its lyk tis thurs
.arghh!!
.forget it
.tis stupid thing is getting ppl pissed
.not only me
.joan so nice
.she so enthu.
-grinns-
.seasons really rawk
.aniwae
.thanx to geri too
.suwi
.nette
.ying
.n nat
.thanx fer helping
.in tis crap
*****
.aniwae
.feel so sian now
.horoscope says
.i'll hav some luck tomolo
.hope so
.sotong cut his hand
.feel so guilty
.hav tis feeling
.tt it concerns our class
.he got into a fit of rage
.yesterdae
.he was pissed
.real pissed
.scolded faith n hope
.sorry
.tink he is damn upset
.with our class
.omg
.he's done really a lot for us
.but wad hav we done
.im sorry mr soh
.he's so nice to us
.but alwaes get bully
.cos he's nice
.-_-.
.promised him
.i'll settle e malay thing
.n i will
*****
.listening to
.guan huai fang shi now
.such a sweet song
.lurve it
.dunno wad le
.hahas
.bye
*****

2004-08-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

2004-07-31T10:38:00.000+08:00

-grinns-
juz finish researching on malay stuff.
dey really is a difficult bunch of ppl lol.
had difficulty finding lol.
and somemore later still hav to find.
aiyoh.
i'm tired!!
but no choice lol.
that stupid racial harmony day is lyk thursdae?
-arrGh!!-
aniwae.
some things happen so fast.
yesterdae.
quarrelled with nat and ying.
over the costumes.
ended up 'dao-ing'.
wadeva.
then ipw presentation.
loved the munchie moos.
but dey dint get in.
i mean top 3.
one screw loose was great.
really great.
loved the egyptian one too.
dey were great too.
after presentation.
2.15pm.
rushed to sylvia class.
prepared the cards.
but no time.
changed into pt there.
so obsene. =D
then started preparing.
fer sec 4 farewell.
got into games comm.
in xinyi's mam grp.
prepared 100 water bombs fer the game.
then asked to go help food comm.
-grrR-
nothing to do.
slack.
passing out parade.
so sad.
some cried.
our new NCOs.
jaslin n zoee mam.
-yesh-
chuanting.
FI.
-congrats-
sinyao.
OIC.
-congrats-
after everything ended.
i cried.
it was sad.
leaving joy.
stephanie too.
really miss them.
they sooo nice.
tears dropped.
my eyes were puffy.
zibbie came to joke with me.
she's so nice.
trying to comfort me.
but it was a lame one.
-*ilu
then had unit photo-taking.
and then dinner time.
then the concert time.
sec ones.
phua chu kang.
we.
sang songs.
it was sucessful.
tears started swelling up again.
then sec 3.
dunno wad they sang.
but it was nice.
sec 4.
sang qing tian.
tears fell.
it made me feel lost.
really miss them.
but wont see them.
again.
then exchange gifts.
they were so sweet.
dey even gave estee.
though she has never came before.
okie.
at least twice.
or thrice.
*ilu mams
wE lovE yoU!!

2004-07-27T18:35:00.000+08:00

I love you more than words could ever say
i feel it growing in my heart each and everyday
all this love i feel has never felt so real
you give me something no one has ever given me
its something you can't see
love so strong and so true
it makes me think of only you
This wonderful feeling you have given me
makes me want to be with you endlessly.
I want to be in your arms to feel your warm embrace
it makes me feel so safe from harm
plus i love to touch your face
i love to look into your eyes
to look through your disguise
to feel your warm hands within mine
as our fingers gently become entwined
because mine just soars
I love how much you care for everyone
The love you show is beyond compare
I love the way you smile
my eyes are kept on you all the while

2004-07-25T12:51:00.000+08:00

-duhhs-
back here again.
fever suckx.medicine suckx.
had one on friday.
ipw presentation.
it suckx too.
perhaps we were too nervous.
but we went ahead.
jiehui's group dint.
some technical fault.D=
so sad.
they put in lots of effort.
but.stupid MOE computers.
they juz cant work the right way.
anxious about the results.
our powerpoint really rawkx.
but.~~presentation~~ suckx.
how.suwi.viv.nat.me.
worried-
anxious-
but to no avail.
results are out on tuesday.
will we.or will we not.
haiz.
aniwae.wish for the best.
also for jiehui's group.
all the best.
jiehui.szb.xinying.eliza.
jia you.
+++++
fwc changed to fwn.
~~camp~~ to night.
i preferred night.
more time with sec fours.
although pissed with some.
but also miss them too.
their days of laughter and jokes.
really.they rawkx.
though strict.but caring.
hard on the outside.soft inside.
ma'ams.two years spent.
scoldings heard.words of care kept.
i'll miss you.
our squad do.
there's nothing without an ending.
nothing.
but emptiness.
wanna give them something memorable.
somthing that will engrave on them.
it wont be painful.
it'll be heart-warming.
expensive stuffs are out of talk.
they dun contain sincerity.
but hand-made ones do.
and they contain lots.
lots.
*ilu
+++++
5th august.
national day.racial harmony day.
coming.
malay culture.
dikir barat.
wassup.
2 grace ppl.
we muz buck up.
prove it to others that we aren't brainless.
we hav creativity.ideas.inspirations.
positivity.passiveness.optimistic.
that's what we are.
show mr soh that we can do it.
we muz be independent.
we relied too much on him.
think he's disappointed with us.
can we do it.
100%effort.
100%mind.
100%work.
100%results.=D
we can do it.
make it a surprise for him.
pls pass around my message.
thanx.

2004-07-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

for zhang shan wei's song, pls wait for it to download....

2004-07-01T17:33:00.000+08:00

*ilu

` school's back again.. this is already e end of week one.. oh man.. i supposed i should buck up more on my studies..i've really de-proved a lot lol.. frm lyk 77.4 to lyk 70.4?? ` omg!!

but perhaps..i wouldn't really mind lol..=D heehee.. tat's because last year i always get lyk 60%?? hahas.. its really a great improvement frm last year..but..my marks changed..wad about other stuffs? i mean..sometimes i really do wonder whether i changed?

i dun deny tat i prefer tis year class more than last year one but does it mean that changing class will affect my attitude towards my friends? originally in niaggani.. i now seem to be closer to ying* n nette* n yanling* n hann* n shermaine*?? `omg!!

wad happen?? i seriously take them as my best friend more than niaggani lol.. `no offence.. aiyo.. aniwae..to whomever who reads this..pls dun tell anione tt i mention k?? thanx!! `luvyaloads *

2004-06-10T09:50:00.000+08:00

well..the hols hav been bad..okie.. i shud say boring..i dun mean to say that i dun go out its juz that i dun feel lyk going out..well..cos im lazy..todae 's my grandmother birthdae..tomolo's my brother wan..have to tink of ways to celebrate..these daes at home were spent being angered by my brothers and sister lol.. -_-" then my elder sis wanted me to do up her blog..oh mann.. i feel so sianz..all i could tink now is to blog blog blog!!well..lucky fer me..np is lyk left with only e last week of school then got..or else...hmph..my campcraft test is sure fail wan lol..its lyk e theory i feel lyk an idiot lol.. fer tt wad is abdominal thrust thing..i was feeling so lame.. guess wad i wrote? fer adults...place both hands on stomach and press till breathing returns to normal..ha ha..:( fer children...i wrote place both hands on stomach and press lightly..ouch..that was really dumb of me.. and fer the first aid practical..i failed it..guess wad..hahas..when sheena mam told me to do the wadeva figure of 8 thing on someone who has sprained her leg..i said i give up.. i dint come on that dae mah.. then i ask wad they taught that day but no one told me about this..fine..i admit i was pissed lol..its lyk i ask lyk 4 or 5 ppl.. and no one told me this thing..i was really pissed lol..i studied quite hard fer this test and in the end that question pulled my moral down..:( okie.. and perhaps that kinda affected my spirits a bit..during backwoodsman..i kept wanting to dig cause i was pissed..yarr..then i ended up with so many blisters.. after that the tent pitching..i was more relaxed lol..i supposed that my strong points fer this test is the knots and lashings part cause i could really tie every knot.. and the tent pitching really went on smoothly except that we dint finish the tent lol..on the whole..i am very very sure that i would FAIL!!!

2004-06-03T17:34:00.000+08:00

2004-05-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

:(

well..that was a very bad starting of a entry..i supposed..but i seriously feel so sad ...i've planned so much fer the class outing but in the end..i cant go..i cant believe it lor..after like bout 1 week of planning and everyone 's like so eager to go..i cant go???someone pls help me!!

haiz..im so sad..my mum dint let me go lor..i always thought that she was a caring mum who allows me to have my own freedom?its like after being so eager in planning all the activities..juz onw word and i cant go?she says that it was because of some family gathering but i tink is because of my ppr lor?i mean its lyk i've already tried my best?i woke up lyk 4 to study in the morning and no one in my entire house knows bout it?my mum will lyk say :you muz study hor..but most of the time..she don't really cares..its really stressful for me lor..juz as i could get a relaxing time with my frenz ..she disallow me?oh mann..wad is this world coming to??

the only thing i wan now is to go fer the class outing..i really wan to.. :( but wad can i do?only choice now is to forget bout this whole thing and go to bed..but..i cant..perhaps is becos i tink that tis is the only chance i hav to interact with my classmates more..i dunno..tis whole freakin damn thing is squeezing my brain out..i cant think of other things..i only wan peace..quiet..and some motherly love? well..she has done her part as a caring mum..but most probably..i dun appreciate..i love her..i love my family..but..i love my frenz too!!

aniwae..i tink i shud juz relax now lor..but..haiz..

2004-05-27T22:44:00.000+08:00

im feeling soooo good..hahas..maybe becos hols coming?hahas..tink is becos class outing coming!!yeaH!!

im feeling much betta now.. with sooo many ppl comforting..wells..guess i shud juz take it in my stride..hahas..todae got parents meeting..lucky my mum hates speaking to teachers..hahas..or else..dunno wad mr soh will say..hahas..aniwaes..really felt a lot betta..perhaps the past few days i was stressed up by some things lah..but now..i okie le!!heehee.. XD

this is me..dunno why..whenever i pissed..its impossible tt i will get angry over tt person for a long time lah..hahas..but i do get angry over some trivial things..thats why i sometimes really cant control myself..hahas..tis is a fact bout me..i believe many ppl tink so too..yarr..aniwaes..thanx to those who had swallowed my troubles when i "vomited" them out..hahas..eww..thats disgusting..hahas..okie..im tired..nitex and sweet dreamz...

2004-05-26T18:15:00.000+08:00

yEaH!!my internet is finally back again..toopid server!!feeling so stressed this few days..got back my ppr few days ago..haiz..deproved soooo much..but there's something that i cant stand is that people who act innocent but CHEATS can actually pass with FLYING COLOURS!!!its so sucky lor..wadeva..surely got one day school sure find out one..-_-"

aniwaes..wanna talk about some other things..firstly im damn pissed with someone in my class..and that is...**[i believe some people noe le]i dun wanna say her name out or else i sure fail my science next term!!this whole damn thing is about project again lah.. i dun understand..project work is supposed to bond the group members together wan..but it turned out different lorh.. '?' this is what happened lah: my grp members are always doing project work on days i cant make it lah..due to CCA..then she say what i never do anything..fine..then i asked her what i can do..she gave me a reply saying : i dunno what u can do..u go find something to do..fcuk lor..can she lyk be more polite..and one thing is that i dint agree on her being the leader lor..i would prefer the other one than her can..arrgh!!then she finally ask me to go look for animations and fonts on the internet for our powerpoint..guess what i gave them to her..she say what :why u find all these? all these very distracting lor!!!wat the..she ask me to find one can? then the next day when we need to present,the diskette had nothing wrong lor..she juz haven finish it then she tried to bluff ms leong..AND ME!!she oso went to tell ms leong that i DINT do anything can? then molly ask US to write on a piece of paper on what we had done and give to her..why izzit only our group?its very obvious she went to tell tales lor..fcuk her lah..*GNS*koie.. think i shud cool down a bit..

okie..next topic..our new monitors.. jacinta*suwi*xinying*peiqi*cheryl seow*..hahas..im quite satisfied with three of them..but for the other two..ermm..no offence kae..many ppl in our class oso think so mah..so i believe..yarr..but i believe they can do it if they wan one lah..monitors: kampatei!!jia you!!i luv u loads mann..hahas..okie..that was lame of me..aniwae..i will be putting more poems..hahas..

Forgiving Friends
by Hunniebe

You are my best friend
You always will be
Yet sometimes I get mad at you
And you get mad at me
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I don't know what to do
But remember always
That I will forgive you

Promise
by Jessica Sills

As you sit in silence,
Wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

2004-05-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

i've collected a number of poems..kEkEx**soRRy fEr nOt bLoGGiNg iN fEr a LoNg tiMe**WiNkX**??++ tHiS pOeMs aRe fEr aLL mY fReNz OuT tHeRe...*ilu

Friends

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift,
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

- Jean Kyler McManus -

What You Are To Me

I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching to me, protecting me.
I am the sun, you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.
I am a lake, you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.
I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.
I am a heart, you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement.
I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness.

Always.

- Bernice Ellrick -

Standing by,
All the way.
Here to help you through your day.

Holding you up,
When you are weak,
Helping you find what it is you seek.

Catching your tears,
When you cry.
Pulling you through when the tide is high.

Absorbing your voice
When you talk.
Standing by when you learn to walk.

Just being there,
Through thick and thin,
All just to say, you are my friend.

- Brittani Kokko -

2004-04-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

Yoz!! hahas.. i wish to say this to s*, k* you all lah.. u noe who i toking bout..okie..firstly im not scolding your frenz bimbos..i dont even noe who dey are fine..nvm..aniwae ive tried to avoid you all the time..in case of making you pissed all what..okayy.. im really sorry..VERY SORRY!! i dint scold them yarr..i dun noe who you all heard from that you tink i scolded your frenz bimbos..i dint..i really dint..if u all still tink tt i scolded a*k a loser.. i tink that u r mistaken lor.. firstly that time k* came past my class during home econs and said loser in front of me..that's very obvious that she's toking bout me larh..okie..then its very obvious tt i was pissed..okie..so i shouted someone loves being losers... then it was then a*k said so loudly that she tink she heard something.. then i replied yes... you heard..overall..i was kinda referring to k*lah...but now i serious wanna say that im sorry..i dun even noe a*k or have any grudge against her at first..so wat's the use of scolding someone tt i dinmt noe? okie..but i serious is sorry..but wassup with those gstbk things.. i dint say tt i was sueing anyone.. my fren spoke rubbish..and you all believed? okie..e letter wazzen submitted to the school.. and oso i hope u all will understand k..i really dint say anything bout bimbos..okie..i ve had enough.. i mean aren't u all tired frm all this stuff.. fine..strongly saying..i m tired.. all this enemy things has started to turn our school into two warring parties... but we still have two more years to go through here lor..if we cont fighting on i seriously think tt it will come to no end..yarr.. u r a understanding person...i tink u will get wat i mean..yarr..okie..im sorry again..

2004-04-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

mi b'dae coming!!!

HoHoHo!!mi birthdae is coming to town...haha..sorry that's lame..thanx ppl..those who comforted me..really thank you..i admit i was really sad at that time..but as you can see..im alright liao..yepps..all thanx to you all..im now very happy..it goes to show that mi is not neglected..sorry..haha..my birthday coming liao..oh my gosh..so fast..still remember last year on mi bdae smt kinda sad happened.. mi broke off with**..okayy..i dun lyk him liao..so wat's the point of continuing with him? but tis year..i hope no such thing will happen..yepps.. soooo... stupid can? the ma'ams want us to have a drills session on either tuesday or wednesday...wat the tuesday? no way..i rather go out with my gors...*bLeAh_X* wednesday i cannot make it..haha..mi muz go old folk's home..speaking about this..i kinda tink tt they very the ke lian..haiz..okayy..lets talk bout yesterday..SPORTS DAY!!!

sports day..so wat..i cant enjoy it..all mi squadmates cant too.. we had to do duty..came to school at bout 2 and changed..joy ma'am said mi skirt too short..well..cant be help..mi grow taller liaox..yayy!! then we gathered at the forum..the ma'am i dislike most came to tell us go family lounge gather..fine..it was lyk sooo damnit far lorh.. then we gathered at the viewing gallery to check uniform but ma'am asked us go family lounge..haiz..again!!

at family lounge, we were told of our duties..mi duty was in charge of other duties..haha..guarding the prize table...thats so lame..hahah..zibbie was angry..dunno with wat..but well..went to comfort her but got ignored..nvm..

the cheerleading part was nice..wow..with gals clad in sexy clothings..yoshika,jeanette and weilin mam were three of those too..so chiou..hahas..the rest all rubbish lah..until the last part..while singing national anthem..we had to salute..so maluating..then we had to fall in to keluar baris..hahas..after everything..we went home..along the way met peter and xianbin..and thoso guys that nat lyk..uh-oh..nat mi so sorry..hope u d take it to heart..yepps..when reached home.. saw one of mi gor..he passed me a gift and then left..haha..tink it was for mi b dae..haha..okayy..mi hands tired liao..hahas..bye.,. :)

2004-04-09T12:02:00.000+08:00

I 'M SAD!!!

haiz..i dun understand..why ppl hate me..i dun understand why ppl tink that i was snatching the monitors "ricebowl"!!! i dint..i really dint..okayy..maybe its juz that i was really doing too much stuff..perhaps i shud concentrate more on my studies..im crying..juz went to see smt posted somewhere..im feeling sad now..im not faking..fine..im tinking of my pri frenz..i miss them...but most of all i really is very hurt..but that msg posted..maybe i shud hide myself more..writing on here perhaps helps me to frustrate out everything...the things i did made ppl misunderstood me..i m feeling very helpless..what shud i do..ppl tink that im kaypoh..ppl tink i CHEATED e class fund..WHY!!

from e start of e year..i always thot that 2 grace was juz a class of "pure" and understanding gals..but i was wrong..really wrong..ppl misunderstood me..i dun wanna be what vice-chairlady..ppl tinks im not up to e job..ppl wanna take over..i dun mind..really..i wun mind..in front of ppl..i ve to put on a false front..to me..vice-chairlady is juz another nick for me..i juz wanna do smt for the class..really..really..i feel very sad...and hurt..why has our class changed into a class os misunderstandings..its lyk any moment..riots would break out..im scared..i really love 2 grace..perhaps more than 1 unity..but why? why?i admit..there r some ppl whom i dun lyk..and some who dun lyk me..but i dun make them noe that i dun lyk them..i talk to them..trying my best to accept them as my frenz..but it turn out lyk..a puddle of water..once stepped..it dispersed..

today is good friday..but it izzen good for me..crying does not seem to help me lessen my "agony"..but dey juz wanna fall..my tears...im not a christian nor a catholic..i only noe that jesus sacrificed his life for others..he's really great...but im not him..i cant follow him in his footsteps..today is supposingly a day for us to let go of our old self and await for reincarnation on sunday..but i cant let go..not because im not a christian or catholic..but because i really wanna noe why our class became lyk this..todae's entry may seem the longest one to me..one that is filled with my tears..im not trying to earn pity from anyone of you..i noe there r some ppl who hates me..i ll change..but will dey give me a chance.. i dun wanna hold back myself..i really lurve 2 grace..but it seem to me that now..only me..im the only one standing..with no support..i ve to depend on myself..perhaps..i shud learn from others..i dun deny e fact that im very short tempered..but..im not god..im not perfect..but even god make mistakes.. so do i..so do everyone..i can change..but i hope everyone in 2 grace will change..to a better person..i may be the morst in the whole class but i believe my true friends..will stand by me..i ll wash my hands..off everything..i ll concentrate on my studies..i ll leave everything to those in charge..i ll make myself scarce..i ll only meddle in my own affairs..i believe this is what that person wants..right?i dun wanna talk bad bout ppl..the monitors has became more **...i dun wish to say anymore..im feeling very uneasy..i dun wanna noe who that person is..but i hope she will understand me..im telling the truth..

i believe everyone noes what tarot cards are..perhaps i would be the fool card in the tarot cards..it means having low mentality and high pressure..thats what i tink..or perhaps im the five of pentacles...having an empty heart..okayy..im talking rubbish..but..this is what i feels..i believe that we can be perfect..but being perfect to me does not mean having no flaws..i only and strongly believe that if i set my mind on it..i can do it..but right now..i seriously tink that i shud wipe away my tears and start on the journey...

*ilu ++2 grace//*

2004-04-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

i'm So biAn tAi!!

hahas..today felt soooo bian tai!!muahaha..if u wanna noe why hahas..read till e end..hahas..

had npcc service dae tis morning..haiz..so sad..joy mam dint come..then i was being put into lucia mam grp..hahas..but she's nice too..wells..joy mam may be better..hahas..went around to some units..some were real friendly..but some were really kinda..err..and when we were done..we went back to school..ate my lunch*two mouths* and then prepared to go to e PA for e live shoot..haiz..it was pathetic!!

e board was already full of holes lorx..how would i noe where i shot can?aiyoh..why cant dey juz change it..its juz so freaking idiotic can?fine..nvm..after that..went to J8 with siewen..jess..xinhui and celine..haiz..nthg to do oso..then halfway through..celine went home first..then we decided to sms joy mam..asking her whether she pon izzit..haha..reply was..she did not..

she had food poisoning..all thanx to zibbie and liying mam..hahas..guess it wazzen that hygenic..muahaha..then me..siewen..jess decided to go visit her at her house..she told us that she wazzen at home..fine..she was at orchard with her mum..hahas..dunno what e hell got over us and we were juz soooo bian tai that we actually went to find her..hahas..sick right..we found her eventually at marks and spencer..at the *bra* department...hahas..socks department oso lah..hahas..but before we decided to appear in front of her..we decided to send her three msg from each of us saying..*honey, i coming le*...hahahs..tink we so damnit the bian tai..yarr..she saw us..came towards us..hahas..talk all kinds of rubbish and finally she went off to pay for her THING!!---her sock larr..hahas..so we decided to go away..then we suddenly feel lyk stalking her again..whahaha..went to find her again..met her and started asking..ask her a question..a very personal one..feel so bad asking her that..haiz..then after that..thought that we should not be that bian tai..so we went home..fine..along the way..me and siewen decided to form a clique called--bian tai jia zu..or the bian tais..hahas..*lame*aren't we?hahas..perhaps we shud try to be more bian tai leh..hahas..im lame..and sick...and BIAN TAI!!!muahaha...

2004-03-25T17:59:00.000+08:00

haiz..hahas..nothing to do now..quarrelled with viv..dun understand her cann..she's juz soo..arrgh too hard to describe..why muz she change soo much? haiz..

tis morning at assembly, she dropped my phone and then i was giving a pissed face..yarr..but i told her i wazzen angry with her or wat..i was pissed with XINYING!!!then back in class..she asked me why i buy the small pkt of milk instead of the big one as we need it for our project..yarr..but i remember CLEARLY that she said she wanted to see which one turn sour first thus she say muz buy small one..fine..i bought it..but she was pissed..okay..after that dunno wat happen..she threw her phone on the floor and shouted to let the whole class hear that " Joanna! my phone's on the floor too!Happy?"i was shocked..she thought that i was pissed becos she dropped my phone..ohh yarr..trying to make the whole class think that everything was my fault can..im really pissed with her now..she lyks acting cute and acting pitiful..so everyone would think that it was my fault..ARRGH!!!

she changed a lot..i really cant stand her sucking up to ms leong yesterday..making ms leong praising her high up to the skies..yarr yarr..in front of others, she's an angel..in front of me? she's a devil..one that is very unpredictable..she's so fake..i cant stand it..i wanna get out of the clique..she's trying to make ppl think how bad i am..yarr yarr..many fell into her trap..wells..she's a sucker up..she tink that she did alot for the grp project yarr..call her during the hols and she said that she finished everything liaoz..came back to school? nothing done..except the task analysis that i did..as for ipw..she took credits for everything that i found..the info and everything else..im sad..real sad..why has she changed soooo much?did smt happen to her..i cant take it..she's been so sensitive about marks frequently..she always thinks that she muz get first for everything..and she thinks that if we get higher than her for any subjects, she goes around saying that we cheat..yarr yarr.. in front of ppl lyk renette, huiying,nat and all our classmates, she only noe how to act..yarr yarr..tats why she's from eldds.. im dying..dying of fear..why did she changed..i dun wanna see her face again..why cant she juz changed for the better instead of changing for the worst? fine..ppl now thinks that she is the goody goody gal of the class..whereas ME? the baddy baddy one perhaps..she wanna be leader for everything..giving the excuse that she wanna be a better leader than celestia..no offence..but can she..i cant deny that celestia is a very good leader..but she..i supposed she only noes how to suck up to teachers and take credits for what we do..i supposed..sooner or later..she will claim credit for everything i do.. and find an excuse saying that i dint do anything and kick me out of the grp..fine..that's all i wanna frustrate out..and if anyone agrees with me..pls either tag my board or sign my gstbk..thanx..

2004-03-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

.:now in sch..doing project=4! 4 projects..Arrgh..=>home econs+ipw+science+eng lit..

talking to my friends about chiobus..hahas...lame<*winkx*>the followin is a list of chiobus whom i noe:

>sec 1 squad*++

-audrey

-jia lin

-valerie

-karen

-vivien

>sec 2 squad*++

-shann

-danielle

-rebekah

>sec 3 squad*++

-michelle mam

-jeanette mam

-sinyao mam

-xinyi mam

-almost all lorx..too lazy to name..

>sec 4 squad*++

-hahas..almost all..yupps..choibus..

.:noe tt im lame.. hahas..juz feel tired..

2004-03-17T09:44:00.000+08:00

.:Finally endured the whole of my LAST jtc..come to tink of it..i kinda miss it..[duhh..i muz be mad..]

i muz hav taken some immortality pills that made me bear with e scorching training for the 3 days 2 night camp.:perhaps i dint realli..i was unwell..

[day one]

.:woke up at 6 plus and began packin my bag and i left my cosy house at about 7 plus..met up with sylvia and meiling at macs..had breakfast and then ~~trampled~~ to school..tryin to retreat back every step i took-i was afraid..of jtc!

.:first thing we did was to pitch e inner sheet of e tents and create a boundary..then we had lunch..a not-that-full one..why?--no time..haiz..after lunch, we had about 20 min to pitch e outer sheet but..my group could not complete..so pathetic..

.:after that..was pt..dunno why..i started feelin nauseous and vomited wateva i ate durin lunch--e teeny weeny bit of noodles..could not stand it..after pt, we had dinner..dint touch anything at all..my grp members..jialin[sec one] had stomach cramps and another..jieyi[sec one] had difficulty in breathing..officers then came over and told us that we muz at least eat a bit..so..we ate ~~bread~~..a mouth..after that..joy mam came over and wanted to help us cook some soft food--porridge..quite nice..juz too salty..

.:at night, while doing century duty, after eating e barley, felt nauseatic again..and VOMITED..okay..that marks e end of day one..

[day two]

.:woke up at 6 plus..haven recover yet..vomited more..felt realli lyk going home..but i dint..e whole campers hav been cheering me on..how could i give up..later on..after breakfast, felt better..had pioneering..my group?--PATHETIC!!!

.:after lunch..had some evacuation stuff thingi..quite fun..except tat my stomach started turning again..did pt..first thing was the one holding e spas on our wrists and doing twinkles..then was bending our knees till 90 degrees..very jia lat..next was push ups..i could feel my hands breakin any moment..followed on was human geometry..that one still can..dunno why..after the pt..i felt very dizzy..but i bear with it..until i reali could not stand it..felt lyk fainting..

.:had backwoodsmen..got scolded till i cried..finally understood why danielle and meiling cried too..it was too harsh..our group almost everyone's down..i had to bear with e dizziness and continued working..my grp members?--two went bathing for a long time..one was helping other grps whereas two was down resting..leaving me alone..only ME..sick and forlorn..mams were helpin my grp to feed e fire and maintain it..i dint noe..until e mams called out for grp i members..i ran there..getting told of..i kept apologising..but e mams continued..i realli felt helpless..no one to turned to..until sheena mam could see tat i was gng to break down then she told me to relax and go look for the ic..thank you..

.:after dinner..i seriously felt very very ill...my squadmates told me tat i could not even stand straight..let alone walk properly..mam brought me to 2 truth to rest..it was cold inside..but the mams were nice..realli..i swear..

[day three]

.:woke up at e same time..but still feeling dizzy..havin a splitting headache..everything seems so blur to me..i felt as if i was gng to faint..jialin told me..i was fainting..maybe..i juz felt realli weak and could not even stand up straight..the campers helped me up..felt so useless all of a sudden..haiz..the rest i dun realli noe..e only thing i noe is tat we had evaluation and i wrote on a slip of paper to thank e mams..kezia mam*sheena mam*joy mam*yinghui mam*stephanie mam*xinhui mam*yimin mam*woonling mam*xiaowen mam*evelyn mam*officers*thanx again..thank you for ur care..

2004-03-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

yoz...got back ppr todae..first time so high kaes..haha so happy..first in class is shaozhe-77.9, next is ME!!-*77.4*...hahas..followed on by jiehui-76.8*i tink..*

yipee!!i've got 77.4!!yayy..[*winkx*]

2004-03-07T15:39:00.000+08:00

You are a Waiting angel. You stay inside your
little world waiting for that special someone
to come and take you away. You hope that the
day that your love will come will be soon, and
no one can pick on you for wanting to save
yourself. On the other hand, your hopes
decrease every day that you suffer. Try to hold
on a bit longer...

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2004-03-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

You are the Goddess of Water. You are a very
loving, you show your emotions out in the open.
You are full of wisdom. Also dreamy... You
would rather be sleeping then awake. But are
still very happy. You are most inspiration to
the other Four Goddesses since without water
there wouldn't be life.
Other Water Goddesses: Aphrodite, Isis, Mariamne,
Mari, Tiamat, Yemaya, Ran, Kupala

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2004-03-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

Fun. You Truly Desire Fun. Your always willing and
ready to play a game, whatever it may be. But
be careful, you cn tend to get a little too
competitive.
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2004-03-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

You r an Innocent Unicorn! Innocent Unicorns are
very pure and good. They are the rarest of
types and sadly, are being hunted. Thats
because an Innocent Unicorn horn once removed
from the head, is worth alot of money, and if
left in holy water for a day, will turn into
diamond. Young Innocent Unicorns always stay
close to their mothers, and always will stand
by there side even when they grow. Innocent
Unicorns are said to be the friends of angels
and can dance on moonbeams. Innocent unicorns
represnt virginty, goodness, pureness, and
love. They always value friendship, and
familly, and are facinated by humans. Innocent
unicorns are shy, but if friends for someone,
its a friend to the end.

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2004-03-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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2004-03-07T15:03:00.000+08:00

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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2004-03-07T14:59:00.000+08:00

You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.

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2004-03-07T14:55:00.000+08:00

You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like "Diamonds in the
Rough."

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2004-03-07T14:51:00.000+08:00

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

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2004-03-07T14:48:00.000+08:00

You are a normal angel. Innocent and pure. Full of
light and hope. You love to be around others,
and really know how to have a good time. You
enjoy hanging around with mortals. You like ti
sing, which you are great at, and like to have
others near you. People are naturally attracted
to your bubbly personaliy, and love to be
around you. Normal angels are always popular,
and have lots of fans. You are happy go lucky,
with an interesting out look on the world.

Though you have experienced pain, that is all
behind you now. You see the bright side to
things, and are always there to help a person
in need. You are quite pretty, with a childish
air, though you know more than others think.

You are a really friendly person. But can be a tad
selfish at times.

You are bright and full of energy.

Better get my shades!

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2004-03-06T10:23:00.000+08:00

this is the result of the quiz i took..

Green

You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

2004-03-06T09:49:00.000+08:00

hahas..now in sch with vivian..came to do project..haha..so sianz..yesterday had npcc lorx..so sianx can..keep on havin gastric pains now and then..headaches too..dun feel lky eating lorx.. aiyoh..found another sweet love poem again..enjoy..

To Spend Forever

I give you my heart
Mind, body and soul,
I give you my love
For you make me whole.
I give you this promise
The promise to try,
I give you each breath
And the tears I cry.

I give you my past
My future and now,
I give you my thoughts
My hope and this vow.
To give you my voice,
And the music I sing,
I give you forever,
I give you this ring.

I give you my world,
All the pain and strife,
I give you my hand
Learn to share my life.
I give you this kiss
And these words I say,
"I'll cherish you always
As of this day."

I give you my faith
That these words are true,
For today, I swear,
To spend my life with you.

-Amanda E. Rogers-

2004-02-29T16:31:00.000+08:00

Sun Feb 29, 04:31:39 PM

days passed so fast, its soon the end of term one..oh mann..so fast..wanna evaluate on the past weeks..
for the past few weeks, i've learnt a lot, and made many new friends..i've oso got to be more sensitive to my surroundings..havin not only one post in class, i've oso learnt to be more responsible and how to lead well..though sometimes problems are met and the road to sucess is kinda full of ups and downs, but i thoroughly enjoyed the days spent in 2 grace..misunderstandings were built but were soon all solved..only thing tt made me unhappy is the distrust among our whole class..
-ppl hate each other
-quarrels broke out
-fights almost started
what has our usually peaceful 2 grace spirit gone to?i wish to say here tt if anyone hates me or watsoeva, i wish tt u would come right up to me or write an anonymous letter to me and tell me your feelings..wateva i wanna say is all here..i really wish tt 2 grace will be more united..and for tt "not so cruel" person, if u r not a coward, pls come out and tell me right in the face..thanx..
i really hope 2 grace would not turn into a class of cliques fighting against each other..*i_luv_u_2_G_*

Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can arrive just like the springtime
And melt away like morning frost

You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share

Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love apart

Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might

Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive

Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare.

- Connie Thomas Lugo -

2004-02-26T08:35:00.000+08:00

Thu Feb 26, 08:35:03 AM
heyz...at home now..hahas..dint go to school today..vomited the whole day yesterday for at least 8 times..oh mann..feel so uneasy not going school today..hahaz..feel lyk telling everyone what i got for my tests till now..i promise tt i'm not trying to boast k..

-english diagnostic test---18.5/25
-english compre---18.5/25
-maths common test---25.5/30
-chinese yue du wen juan---35.5/50
-chinese yu wen lian xi---44.5/50
-ting xie 1---20/20
-ting xie 2---29.5/30
-art---19/20
-english lit[it sux]---10/25
-home econs[slip hemming]---12/15
-home econs[theory]---14/20

really miss two grace ppl except some lyk bm..cant stand her k...say two grace suck?yah yah..tink she suck more..nvm..niaggani is still e best..

2004-02-19T16:36:00.000+08:00

Thu Feb 19, 04:36:19 PM

its_betta_to_be_frenz_cos'_~~love_hurtz~~_

Leave me, O Love, which reachest but to dust,
And thou my mind aspire to higher things:
Grow rich in that which never taketh rust:
Whatever fades, but fading pleasure brings.

Draw in thy beams, and humble all thy might,
To that sweet yoke, where lasting freedoms be:
Which breaks the clouds and opens forth the light,
That doth both shine and give us sight to see.

O take fast hold, let that light be thy guide,
In this small course which birth draws out to death,
And think how evil becometh him to slide,
Who seeketh heaven, and comes of heavenly breath.
Then farewell world, thy uttermost I see,
Eternal Love, maintain thy life in me.

2004-02-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

Wed Feb 18, 05:30:03 PM
heyx..feeling bored now..wat the..chinese high e year book with me liaoz..my frenz all wanna see..aiyoh..hahas..(-.-)
another thing tt made me feel so unwell todae is e talking of daryl tan..aiyoh..got teased again by snoopy..wanted to give me his number..who cares i already got it last week liao..hahas..
smiled to her taday..dun feel angry with her liaox..sianz..but tt whoeva guy called weijie so sucky..okay wateva lorx..
watched lord of e rings tis morning..dun understand at all..so sianz..eliza went head over heels with tt "shuai" guy inside.ay..where got shuai??
haiz..
oso,went j8 today..to tt 3rd lang centre too..oh mann..tt albert so damn it e err..hahas..no comments..
wanna talk about ppl i regard as frenz in my class..

-niaggani
-renette,huiying,yanling
-geraldine,yuhui
-nat,chuyan,huiwen

tink tat's for all..k..too tired liao..
_lOvE_hUrTz_bUt_hEaLz_(*_*)

2004-02-16T15:52:00.000+08:00

hahaz...juz went around looking at ppl blogs..so envy theirs..so nice..not lyk mine..err..juz too lazy to care about it(*-*)

got scolded by someone..nvm..bearing with it..

got back to class and told mr soh i dun wanna be vice chairlady liaox..haizx...told me to tink over again..

had art after recess..got teased by foo over daryl tan again..

dun understand y dey muz say tt i lyk daryl tan lorx..so many ppl love toking crap..~~me? and daryl tan?~~impossible k..sick..i admit i tink tt he is shuai but tt duzzen meanz tt i lyk him!waTeVa!

dun feel lyk writing liao..~~(yawnzZZ)~~

niAggAni & jiNgLe rAwKz!